葛城 ミサト
Katsuragi Misato
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T H E B R E A K D O W N Misato Katsuragi † NAME
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A curse - one that not many know about - is that everyone that has had contact with Evangelion is doomed to be emotionally disturbed, leading to an inevitable nervous breakdown or suicide.
Despite this - it is possible that one can heal from these wounds.
We'll have to see.
PERSONALITY † Misato is a mix of nonplussed and amused — and can use that to her advantage to make any situation a comedic show. On the outside it may seem that she is promiscuous when the truth is she’s only been had by a single man — Ryoji Kaji. She just has the sex appeal of a fox only because being sultry or interacting in a sexual manner is the only way she understands how to convey emotions and care for others, which is why she is confused as a whore rather than an emotional being with well-meaning intentions. When crossed she can be extremely sore, sarcastic, and often vicious in verbiage.
SECRETS † Makoto Hyuga’s feelings for her are reciprocated in the fullest but because Misato hates herself she won’t allow herself to be blissfully in love in a healthy, meaningful relationship; therefore having Hyuga-kun under the impression she is completely about Kaji when it couldn’t be further from the truth.
DISORDERS † Borderline Personality Disorder. Alcoholism. Borderline hoarder. Borderline Codependency. Love Addiction. Post Traumatic Stress Disorder.
BIOGRAPHY † Misato grew up in a volatile home. Her father left her mother at an early age because his personality gifted him with denial that he was a parent and that he just didn’t want to deal with this aspect of adulthood and familial relationships. This caused Misato’s mother to be upset on a consistent basis and the situation altogether caused a child, who was not supposed to have adult responsibilities, to take on as such and forced herself to conform to a perfectionist, “the good child”, in order to accommodate her mother’s emotional incapacitation.
The one thing that caused her to question her father’s loyalty, and therefore her own opinion of him, was when he sacrificed his life for her by placing her in a hyper-secure capsule right when the first Angel or Being of Light appeared during Second Impact. This confused the hell out of her as a child and therefore the trauma of not only her entire life, but witnessing the damage of what the Being of Light did, caused her to become mute for the rest of her prepubescence and adolescence. When she entered college she’d healed somewhat and made friends with Ritsuko Akagi, who was also the daughter of a doctor who was involved in what was Gehirn at the time, and therefore spoke once more. But according to Ritsuko, Misato “spoke so much as if to make up for lost time”.
There, she met and fell in love with Ryoji Kaji — who was unmistakably, in both mind, body, and spirit, practically a reincarnation of her own father. She fell for him not because he genuinely cared for her — but because she was attempting to recreate the relationship with her paternal parent but also to fill the empty void of her life with sexual and emotional ecstasy of a romantic relationship. It was to avoid the fact that her heart and every day life was sorely lacking. It was a bandage that couldn’t fix the hemorrhage of emotional wounds of her entire existence.
As an adult, she was in Germany when NERV first formed and worked alongside Kaji, and then moved to Japan right before Shinji Ikari was summoned to service. There, she took a motherly interest in Shinji and used him, unconsciously, as an escape from her own intense loneliness and empty life.
After years of separation from Kaji since college — she broke up with him because it pained her to see her falling exactly for the person who broke her heart as a child and the fact she felt like she didn’t deserve anything good — and a good drunken blitz since then to cope with her empty existence, they rekindled their romance when he joined NERV at the Japanese site. There, she supported him knowing that he was on an espionage mission from the JSSDF and risked her own welfare and life to do so.
However, she was vaguely aware that Makoto Hyuga, one of the head NERV Technicians that worked alongside her, as she was Operations Director, had been in love with her since her first break up with Kaji. Feeling she didn’t deserve something as wholesome, and that maybe he really wasn’t in love with her, and that this was true, and deep, and real — she did what she did best. And like Shinji, *she ran.* Back into the arms of a man who didn’t care much of her other than a distant piece of personal welfare and what she could do for him in bed.
Misato hated the Angels because of how they ruined her life. Or, rather, what little she had of one.
With Shinji and Asuka in her quarters she felt she could pretend to have at least a *semblance* of a normal lifestyle. That she had someone else to care about other than Pen Pen — of whom she genuinely loved, of course — and maybe that would melt the cracks of her heart together again, hopefully like the gold the Japanese used as an ancient method of repairing broken pottery.
Kaji died due to an error he made during a top secret mission — playing double agent for both Commander Ikari and the JSSDF only to find out information for his own benefit — leaving Misato devastated. All she had to cling onto, as far as an adult support, was Makoto Hyuga. Her feelings were developing but did not grow or were budded because of Third Impact. The moment she turned to LCL she spoke with Kaji, likely as a dead spirit and not the Instrumentality created by Rei, asking if she did the right thing for Shinji.
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O U T - O F - C H A R A C T E R First Off: Thanks for visiting my profile! If you're not a dick - I probably won't be either. Leave your llama-drama at the door. Mainly for main chat play. Please have the writing equivalency of a high school graduate. If you want to RP in PM please ask me first. PM friendly. If I don't respond right away I'm afk or busy. No Smut or Romance. This character wasn't made for the sole purpose of smut so please understand when I tell you 'no'. Not going to pair this character with Shinji or any other shota. |
